i may be just me now. but i am me. and i have real, true friends. the kind that will be there through anything: through heartbreak, addiction, pain, love, and betrayal. it's unfortunate that it took such an ass-knocking for me to realize it. but my family and friends are the best that anyone can ask for. so, this post is dedicated to them, and their awesome-ness.... i know that's not a word....and i realize that cheese factor of this is at an all-time high, but regardless: i am too grateful for everything to keep it inside.
i have been selfish at times. especially lately. giving in to urges that are detrimental to both myself and those who care(d) about me the most. but i'm through with that. once you see the look on someone's face, hear the intonation of their voice begging you to never hurt them that way again, you can't help but go: 'so that's the reason for everything.' because they do care. they are there. they're there to remind you of all the times when you were okay, when you were better than okay, when you were a good person, and they tell you as such. but they're not afraid to tell you when you suck either. they can say: 'that was fucking stupid. you're a selfish bitch.' and it's a-okay. because it is. i expect them to say that, and they expect me to reciprocate.
i have been crazy the past month. absolutely certifiably insane. but not any longer. the girl with the dead eyes and fake laughter is heretofore to become Leni again. and if it took disappointment to change me...then so be it.
who's to say if i've been changed for the better?
(i do believe i have been changed for the better)
because i knew you
i have been changed for good.
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